Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Ar ami

Durr durr, ja korchhi keno korchhi, kar jonno korchhi? Jara dekhchhey, sunchhey, porchhey, pith-chaprachhey, upodesh-dichhey tader du-minute er monojog akorshoner jonnoi ki amar bechey thaka? kotha bola? lekha - chhobi tola? Ki chai ami, asoley? ki chai ja mukh futey boltey na perey sudhui chhobi hatrai, kobita oltai, cinemay buud hoye jai. Hoito ja ami srishti kori, ja ami bornona kori, ja prokash kori sohomormitay - sei sob kichhur modhye diye ektai kotha boltey chai. Jemon Sandipan bolechhilen "amar lekhar songey songey amakeo doya korey ektu bhalobasun" - puro kepe giyechhilam line ta porey. Ki korey boley fellen Sandipan orom sohojey ekta kotha ja ami sarajibon dhorey bolar chesta korey jachhi ar sahos pachhi na. Hoito sobdo o khujey paini konodin ei kothata prokash korar moto. Somosto srishti key chorom noibortik bhabey bhasiye diyechhi manusher samney, jeno ogulo ek ekti nijoswo sotwa. Oder kono narir taan nei amar sathey, ora nijera jemon, jototuku sundor/sot/silpito tar jorei dariye thakbey ora. Ar ami? ami nei er modhye kothao. Ota bhalo lens kenar fol, omuk lekhata esechhilo ager din prochur depression er por, ota ekta kormohin dupurer fosol. Ebhabei kromosho ei sob srishtir theke durey sorey jai. Ar tai jokhon urey asey bhalo-mondo montobyo, bindumatro o chhuye jayna jeno kothao. Emonki jokhon oder periye bahobagulo urey asey amar silpi-sottar dikei, keu boley othey "tumi to darun chhobi tolo" , tokhono bindumatro anondo uthey asey na mukhey, jhilik diye othey na kono utsaho-bhalolaga.

Karon kothao jeno eisob srishtir theke onek durey, witty jokes er aral periye bari korey rekhechhi nijer. Sekhaney amar kono ostro nei tomader porasto korar moto, kono matal-gondhhi ful nei baganey. Sekhaney ami eka, opekkhomaan. Sekhaney je asbey se pordar por porda soriye soriye tar chokh jholsey debar somosto prochestakey sneher hasitey upekha korey asbey. Sekhaney je pouchhabey takey jokhon jiges korbo keno eley etodur, uttor khujey pabey na se. Angul diye chiniye debar moto kono bisishtotai ar obosishto nei sekhaney.

Chhotobelar golpo sonar moto ei abdaar amar. Jokhoni thakuma golpo boltey bosto, kibhabey Ganesh-dada lomba sur diye thakur ghorer konay rakha dorbesh tuley nilo chupti korey, ami thamiye diye boltaam "Ar ami?". Thakumao plot bodley bolten, ar tumi to songe songei royechho, tuley niyechho arekta dorbesh. Kintu golpo abar ek line egotei ami boley uthtam "Ar ami?". Kothao jeno golper ami alada hoye gechhey amar ami-r theke.

Jibontao ebhabei kete gelo, sob bhalobasa, somosto bondhu, protiti so-prosongso drishti jeno onno karo dikey choley gelo ... Ar ami? Ar ami? Ar ami?

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